OUT OF THE WOODS

Okay, I have been gone a long time. I am not sure how it happened so, then again – I think I know. Can I just say that I am really excited to be back? I have sincerely missed you too. Sorely! (I am breaking into a huge grin as I type.) How are you? How have you been? Everything good? Not bad, not good? Figuring things out?

I would hope you are well. (I am, too.)

Where do I begin?

There is not much to tell, of course, but it has been long and I feel like talking. Okay, so here is one something: I have purchased a monthly subscription to Adobe Illustrator so I can use it alongside Adobe Photoshop and it is one of the better things that I have done, this year! I have much to learn (re-learn?) but yes, finalmente. (I have developed a mild obsessive/compulsive way of thinking over the years – I could have just said Photoshop without the Adobe when I used it in the previous sentence – you would have got it, but I just could not bear to not. I would have not used the word at all, then.)

Because of which, I have drawing on there some more than otherwise, and I randomly thought of making a project/series etc. of it on my Tumblr blog. The series is called Women of My World and I am protective/proud of it. Of course, some of the women may have some ‘drawing defects’ (sorry, my beautiful women) but I do not know! These women are special to me, they were my friends when I was bored at home – feeling dejected/depressed/lonely (about two months ago). I also have been meaning to acquire more work (of the illustrative variety, etc.); usually, a few folks reach out to me every year but it would be nice if I could manage to hear of interesting projects outside of this ‘tiny pool of reach’, and pitch for more projects (not too many) etc.

Oh yes, and the title of this post. Yes, somewhat apt, I could say! I have not been hiding but I have been scuttling about in the woods… I have been looking for something, walking on an unbeaten path (Don’t you hate the way I talk or write sometimes?), and falling down deep tunnels (not as intriguing as Alice’s adventures) and feeling beaten and broken etc. – however, every now and then, I seek refuge in a cosy hollow; ferns, leaves and saplings have been growing all over the place or I bump into worker bees who want to teach me that working hard is one of the world’s oldest methods to make the brain feel good. So I am happy, in a general sense. It is the little stratosphere around me – that bit is okay. It is good. There are pollutants that infiltrate etc.; some, I have no protection against. I am not trying to control every little thing, I am making decisions on my own, and I am trying. Really hard. (I want it to hurt!)

I am hoping to make something better of myself.

I am scared, though. (Though I think immersing oneself into a body of something is good; the word itself is light, it is not coercive or forceful or persuasive – it is healing. It is letting you breathe/do/make – complete with a very faint prickle of urgency. All in good measure, to get your ‘floating situation’ in order.)

There is more to come.

P.S. This post may have been all over the place; I do not apologise for it being so. I am happy to be writing here, again! Over the last few months and weeks, I was in a mind to delete a great big chunk of my posts from long ago. They were bothering me. There was a disconnect. I did not know what to write about. Shallow and superficial were two of the words hovering in my mind’s eye, all the fucking time. I do not directly help anyone through this platform, I know this… I am not sure if that is/was the primary purpose of this blog. But I have feelings I would like to express, and some thoughts too. Lots of in-between tales, I would hope you understand that this space has its shortcomings – I can accept that. It is dear to me; I love my other children too. I hope you do not just see this as a puerile place, it would feel horrid. I want my work to have meaning (whatever I do in life, no – not just jobs, necessarily.)

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Artwork by Roanna Fernandes

Lucky Number 13

100 Lucky Number 13

I’m not sure what to say to you, 2012. You have been pretty unpredictable, but mostly good. I kind of like you but it’s time to say goodbye. There has been talk though, of your comrade, 2013, not seeing the light of day. Of this world coming to a close. Well, I have hope and it shines bright and new. 2013, I SEE you!

Coincidentally, this post is also my hundredth (yes, I know it has been two years since Jupiter Skye was conceived but yeah…), and well, I solemnly swear to post my writings and work more often on this blog. 2012 has been a strange year, a good year somehow, a year filled with travel, some illness in between, happy stuff and it has led me to rekindle all my past friendships. And though I might whine often, I am truly grateful for everything that has come my way. Call it sheer dumb luck perhaps as Professor McGonagall would say! :-D

And while we’re talking about new beginnings (and positive ones, at that) and the year to come, I thought I might as well pen thirteen resolutions that I hope tono, scratch that! – solemnly swear to stay true to, come 2013…

1. I hope to be more regular when it comes to updating this blog, Jupiter Skye.

2. I want to spend a dedicated couple of days every month to Rosecraft, and make cooler + better jewellery and stationery (I have already thought of a few lines).

3. I will not be so BREEZY about my life; I’ll try to work around it, figure out where I can study art and illustration abroad, look up colleges and university programmes (ON MY OWN).

4. I will travel to one place I’ve never, EVER set foot in, before.

5. I will write more. And OFTEN. Yes, I miss ranting, being morbid and writing all those deep, dark and cryptic things on my other blog, and in my journals.

6. I will buy lesser clothes and accessories (I’ll also try to sort out the stuff in my closet and give away what I don’t wear anymore or haven’t worn yet! Garage sale?), and actually save up.

7. I will buy a domain name for my baby! Must ask Mr. Makhija for help. :-D

8. I will practise my calligraphy. Need to look for my old ink pens!

9. I will learn French. This has to be set in stone. I simply must! I just feel that if I brush up on what I’ve already learnt, and actually complete gaining all my knowledge of the language, somehow Paris will happen. It won’t seem so far-fetched then. Silly huh? :-)

10. I will LOSE some weight. Yes, I did get skinnier after my fight with pneumonia in March this year, but later, I put on all those damned pounds once again. 

11. Goodbye caffeine (coffees + colas). :’-(

12. I will paint at least four coasters a month. This isn’t such a difficult goal, and I must, for the sake of Rosecraft. Amen!

13. Last but certainly not the least (because I’m sure I’ll think of a dozen more after I publish this), I will try a little bit, just a wee bit really to be social. I hate being so, honestly because I’m a very HAPPY loner, but I will try this year. Just for you! :-D

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Artwork by Roanna Fernandes

P.S. Have a heart, and please refrain from copying and stealing my illustrations or branding them as your own; I had the biggest scare recently when a fashion brand stole my stuff for their Facebook fan-page, so PLEASE. I would really appreciate it if you wouldn’t, and if you like my work, you can get in touch with me at jupiterskye4@gmail.com, yes!

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