THE LIGHT OF THE MOON

We are going to want to talk about ‘time’ again, are we not; you know, how it picks up speed ever so slightly making every moment fleeting, etc. Because here we are, once again – at the beginning of an end, at the end of a beginning; and this is the way it must be for how else must we live? How else must we see, how else must we know, how else must we feel? January, you are not quite over – and yet you have been a long and weary-inducing month. I have learned some things, hated some things, discovered some things and then some. But you were here, all the same; so, thank you.

P.S. One of my closest friends, Valya (we used to live at Kalyan Kendra in Bandra, and that is where we met) is getting married to her beau, this weekend; send her some love, should you be inclined to (I hope everything goes well). There are a bunch of events, starting tomorrow… Oh, and see you soon, February, ¡mi amor!

(I have not photographed anything interesting in a while – this reminds me, I have to charge my camera’s batteries; some of my ideas are coming back to life so you can expect to see some good things on here, es mi promesa a usted.)

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Artwork by Roanna Fernandes

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THE SEARCH FOR EVERYTHING

Hi.

How are you doing?

Ever since getting back to writing and publishing posts on this blog again, I have a newfound enthusiasm to keep up, continue putting up posts as often as I can. I had a bunch of ideas for Christmas – not all of them saw the light of day (you know this); I was keen to put up a post in the first week of January but fell sick (I am better), some unexpected news came my way and well, there has been a bunch going on in my personal life… But, hey, I am here, now.

This post is just one of those where I muse over the near future and nurse wild hope that I can make things work, this year. I am determined to work extra hard and give everything all I have (one life, they say); take up an interesting full-time job (the focus is to make money but I would like for my weekends to be stress-free and so); continue drawing and pursue even more personal and professional projects (as I have in 2017) etc. (There is a whole list.) The Search for Everything – if I may, friends (thank you, John Mayer)… I wish you love and luck on your journey too. Thank you for your support through mine (silent or otherwise); your comments and compliments fill me with encouragement and a quiet determination to do more (with my craft). For this, I am eternally grateful.

P.S. Kevin, you are sorely missed and will be – forever more; you are loved more than you could have ever fathomed. I know that you are in a better place, now, but I do wish you were still here. Thank you for the memories, and rest in peace, brother. (Should you pray and/or be a believer in the divine forces out there, could you please spare a thought for Kevin and his family, tonight? Their hearts are in need of healing; and their souls – to be soothed.)

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Artwork and picture by Roanna Fernandes

HIGH BY THE BEACH

251 High by the Beach

“Rose Quartz is a persuasive yet gentle tone that conveys compassion and a sense of composure. Serenity is weightless and airy, like the expanse of the blue sky above us, bringing feelings of respite and relaxation even in turbulent times.”

(This is what has been said on the Pantone website.) Never before have I felt a more powerful pull to the colours of the year! I have always been interested in knowing what the colours of the year are (ever since 2012), but this year feels special. I feel like they are connected to me in a very overall way, this year. The colours speak to me! A cool wave of tranquility washes over me… Cleansing my soul completely. I am warm, I am cool, I am tinted, I am hued, I am flawed, I am perfect. I am well!

  1. This is a collection of items that seemed to reflect my thoughts – at least, I think so! I chose them for their colouring and vibe. Also, my mermaid socks from Forever 21 (Rs. 89), and the Ruchi Opal Pendant from Accessorize (Rs. 343.50) make an appearance, here.
  2. I am very excited to begin reading The Love Letter and Other Stories by Buddhadeva Bose; I have only read one of his other books which I enjoyed immensely so yeah, I picked this one up on a whim. (The book isn’t being sold like this, I just liked how it looked without its jacket on.)
  3. I don’t remember how this little plastic, Barbie-like mermaid came into my possession, but I am not complaining. I like her!
  4. And the watercolour postcard? :-) Sonaksha posted this one across to me, and I love it so much. (Yes, it is from the same series that I was talking about earlier.)

P.S. I think it is very, very important to remember that you are the only person who can make you whole again. I was lost for a very long time, sinking slowly into a dreary depression, etc. and so I might be able to relate to someone else feeling similarly. It would be crazy town to tell you my life is idyllic RN, but it certainly is not so bad either. I have been forgetting about the little things (maybe you have, too?) – and now, I really want to devote my efforts, energy, love, money and time to create more – and, experiences.

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Artwork and pictures by Roanna Fernandes

WHERE ARE Ü NOW

250 Where Are Ü Now

Good question! A lot of different places? (Sorry, it’s not cool to answer questions with questions.) Okay, the truth… I can’t remember if I mentioned this on my blog before – I took up a full-time job sometime in October, last year. It was with a brand I was really excited about and liked (perhaps still do) and I felt chuffed to have made the cut after directly applying to the HR team there, etc. – there didn’t seem like much to complain about. I was guaranteed a (slightly more than) decent source of income every month, and my weekends were mostly free (unless otherwise stated) – and therefore, seemingly be able to take care of my blog, on the side. Ending this story real quick, that job didn’t work out for me.

While the profile I had there helped me grow in terms of getting out of my comfort zone (after more than a year), reviving my love of boarding fast trains from Dadar back home, learning how to use a Macintosh computer (gah, I think I am not so averse to Apple products anymore), and a little movie editing (and this and that), etc. – being there was not making me very happy. I won’t bore you with the specifics – I am out of the fire, and I feel alive with hope. I really do, and for the first time after ages, I don’t feel depressed. 2015 was not a bad year, and so much happened – and I have loads to look back on but I want to think of it too, as my year of mistakes. Which is good, ah… It’s somewhat difficult to communicate how happy I am RN while I am trying to tell you of the me from before.

Ooh, so I am not sure if you were able to read into some clues here that happened by way of making this illustration for the post… You probably can’t (SIGH), I just have so many of these crazy+cool secrets going on in my brain.

Before I wrap up, nope – I haven’t mastered the art of coding yet but I played around with some of the free themes available for WordPress to change the layout of my blog, a little. Bon? Oh, and won’t you please check out my friend Sonaksha’s watercolour and #creaturesofwords posts on her Instagram feed. They’re so beautiful to look at, and I am filled with awe, inspiration, jealousy and love all at once. Real works, them! #Wanterlust

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Artwork by Roanna Fernandes