Breaking the Habit

241 Breaking the Habit

There is no time like now! The mood particularly called for a post such as this. Do you ever feel like crap on days when everything does not seem to be going right? Or perhaps when you wake up late, find yourself with no purpose, get irritated with yourself and sometimes wish you could go back to sleep and start all over, tomorrow? I do feel like that on some days (even a few days in a row), and I know if I keep it up… It will build into some sort of mild depression (if it hasn’t already – okay, to be honest, it has but I am working on it).

There are a few websites (MoodGYM, etc.) that encourage you to do a bunch of exercises for your mind and gain some perspective, when you’re feeling absolutely pathetic. Other times, I try to just get over it which is easier said than done. Mostly, what I hate are those days when you want to cry, cry and continue to keep on crying – the kind that never really stops (those tears that are shed for no particular rhyme or reason), and that as a process is not really cleansing but that alters all the sadness you’re feeling into anger, or something equally bitter. And so, I’m breeeeeaking the habit, tonight (you are crooning with me, yes)

Clean out your closet, head, etc. Whatever bro! Cleaning really helps me at those times when I feel like a useless person. It occupies you, which is something you definitely need… It opens your mind, and just gives you something better to do rather than hate on yourself. 

Communicate what you’re feeling, erm, talk to someone maybe? I know it’s easy for me to say but trust me, it actually really isn’t. Because I prefer keeping things to myself and self-healing or whatever. It works, on occasion but I think talking to either a close friend or sibling, perhaps even a counsellor or professional helps tonnes, too. (Ooh, maintaining a journal is gold! I haven’t actually been writing very often in mine; I know I should.)

Drink uh, nothing intoxicating perhaps, at a time like this! Tea is the potion. (I know you were thinking I would have said coffee!) I prefer tea in times of distress, I love the aroma especially if it’s of the clear, herbal variety – ooh, like rose tea. Or camomile! Lavender is one to be tried.

Exercise (I know, d-uh!) But I have only come to recently appreciate the goodness that comes out of an intense work-out sesh. Good energy is what you need to snap out of it! And it’s a lot easier to tap on some good vibes through an old-fashioned run in the park, some yoga for your head, and some movement for your muscles.

Experiment with something completely new (not acid, you doof)! Be brave, just go with it. I used to think I wasn’t exactly a camping or forest sort of person until I went to one, this summer. And it was a really mild experience but nonetheless, so good for me. Much as I thought to myself that it wasn’t me, and I would be bored, that my legs wouldn’t be able to take it (making excuses, etc.) but once I was there – it wasn’t bad at all. I got to spend an entire afternoon semi-floating in the cool waters of a secret, inlet pool there, sit on pebbles that grew hot through the afternoon (steam even rose from them), lie with my head resting on warm pebbles as foamy, gushing water massaged my temples… Well, it was something! So don’t be like me or dismiss things before you know how they can be, you might hate or love it but it is better to have known, and/or tried. Promise? (Okay, just listen to Brave by Sara Bareilles if you think I’m talking out of my arse or something.)

Learn something you never have before, or that you always wanted to. I looked for some of those online courses that you can do for free and didn’t find subjects I liked, but then I was inspired by my friend Abhishek (Khan) who is teaching himself the art of drawing lettering types so I think I’m going to do some of that, myself. (Personal projects are good for you!)

Listen to good music, old sounds (read: Linkin Park), whatever inspires you or gets you going, etc. Music is like love for me, it just speaks to me whenever I’m feeling things, good or bad. I relate to it, and I think it mostly helps alter my mood or makes me feel instantly good about myself.

Rest well, and good, my sweet friend! (I gotta cut down on my daily caffeine intake, dude.) 

Shower (ing) is my favourite-st, fail-proof method to physically break out of a funk; cold or hot, take your pick but make sure your gel or shampoo smells like the best fragrance you have ever smelled. (I like the Wild Argan Oil shower gel from The Body Shop or anything that smells good to me, when I feel depressed!)

Smell fragrances that make you feel empowered or invigorated, etc. I know this sounds shallow or weird, but it does help ease the mind, etc. I think that’s why I’m overly fond of wearing perfume, lighting agarbattis and scented candles, and what-not.

P.S. Do you ever/really feel like this? Basically, I think every step is simple, is heard of and usually works. A combination of some steps work, too! I just thought of writing this post on a very random note, because as you now know; I feel like this on-and-off and it really bothers me. I just want to do more, feel more, and live more. We should not have to worry so much about making money or dying young, or not having done things; we should work at being happy, do things instead (worry less) and just be ourselves. 

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Artwork by Roanna Fernandes

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Super Mario

238 Super Mario

It took me a while to be in complete awe of his work, I don’t exactly know why, but I just knew of Mario Miranda before (like I had heard the name, knew very little about him) and enjoyed seeing some of his drawings and vignettes in select places in Bombay, etc. That was about it! I never really took care to go through his work, or such. Last month though, I went to Goa for a few days; I was staying with my ex-roommate Nandini (Velho), and well (unrelated), her house reminded me of a modern day tree-house, from the furniture to the rooms, etc. Everything just looked so interesting, and the home – so very inviting. Anyway, her dad, Luis (d-uh, a Velho too) is an architect (felt I should inject that, here), and a complete Mario Miranda loyalist.

The walls of their house are covered with some of Mario’s coolest works (there were some outlined drawings in black over fluorescent yellow paper)… And that is where I discovered more artworks apart from the few I used to see at Cafe Mondegar in Colaba. On my last day in Goa, Nandini took me to the Mario Miranda shop in Panjim, and I wanted to buy nearly all the greetings cards, postcards and some of the prints, there. However, I picked up a handful of ten assorted cards for Rs. 200, and can’t wait to stock up on some more, the next time I visit the store. (This card featuring the Le Crocodile bar in Paris is from Mario’s Impressions of Paris set.)

P.S. Oh, and yes, I definitely did learn a little bit more about him now, and otherwise, really want to get some of the poster-sized prints. Also, inspired! Very, very.

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Artwork and picture by Roanna Fernandes

The Princess Diaries

236 The Princess Diaries

For some reason, I’ve been drawing these arched windows everywhere (I just learned that this architectural style does have a name, and these curved domes are called onion domes.)… I think it probably has to do with me thinking of Delhi lately, being inspired by those Mughalesque buildings and minarets, etc. I also recently finished reading Persepolis (and watching the movie) for the third time, ever. (Which could have contributed to the obsession, too!) Marjane Satrapi’s illustrative style is one of my favourites, and as you know I do love dark outlines and objects with the little details that are drawn out so carefully (even the teacups and kettles in the book + movie look cute).

P.S. This drawing was titled Rajkumari only because the girl seems like an Indian princess standing in an arched window, and I don’t know? The hint of pink made me think of a RANI hue, and other ethnic elements. But however, I realise I am rambling, I do like how I’ve drawn this and really, badly want to start drawing and practising strokes with Illustrator. So far, I’m only equipped with fairly good Photoshop skills. Need to look for online courses; and also, get another job! Broke.

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Artwork and picture by Roanna Fernandes

 

May the Fourth Be with You

230 May the Fourth Be with You

Okay, it would take me way too long to recollect how many times I have said this over the period of my blog coming into existence but… I do apologise for not writing here, in so long. Nothing of consequence, perhaps, lately… Please forgive me! (Ooh, yeah, it has occurred to me that these apologies are seemingly directed to my blog itself, as opposed to the ones who actually bother reading my posts!) But I shouldn’t grovel too much because that would beat the point of this post, right? Right? Right.

Very late to the party, but attended all four nonetheless – yes, I’m talking about GIRLS on HBO; I started watching the series in March of this year, and Sonaksha and another friend on Twitter made me feel like watching the show properly, this time. (I watched a few episodes it when the show first came out, but dismissed it coldly stating it wasn’t for me or that they were trying too hard or I don’t honestly remember very clearly. The reasons sound dumb, now!) Basically, here are four words. I LOVE THE SERIES! ♥ (This post wasn’t meant to be an ode to GIRLS though I think I’ll continue to illustrate more of my favourite quotes from the episodes, as and when I feel like it.)

Erm, so the force. Yep, I’ve been saying this before, and all over the place… But do what you gotta do. I think you will just resent yourself if you don’t… Do your thing, make your mistakes, just live, and be. Don’t offer advice all the time; and please don’t tell someone what they ought to be doing with their lives. (I’m basically talking to myself, here but what’s new?) Jessa is so inspirational. I love her beliefs! (And she reminds me so much of my ex-roommate, Nandini Velho.) But mostly because what comes out of her mouth is blunt and raw, and true… And her thoughts are constantly evolving. As our minds are. 

I’m trying to stop being Judgmental Janine too, generally – you know sometimes, when that idiotic voice pops up in your head telling you – it’s cool, you’re better than her… ? Don’t do that. It is shitty. And I have gossiped about, grudged and been mean about some folks (mostly, women) whose choices I didn’t like. That’s the thing! We’re free to do what we want. Everyone’s choices are different, you know? That’s all I’m saying… I am no sage. I also, generally feel the force coursing through my veins to make this blog my happy place again (WOW, WAY TO DIGRESS, RO!) and not worry that everything I publish here has to always be a 100% perfect. Inshallah. (Thank you for reading this piece of oddness, you crazies!)

P.S. Also, yes, I like the number four. I think it’s one of my favourites! Weird, eh? So it made sense to have some pun with it. Geddit? Okay, wow, I am lame. Talk to you soon, m’dears!

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Artwork by Roanna Fernandes