Breaking the Habit

241 Breaking the Habit

There is no time like now! The mood particularly called for a post such as this. Do you ever feel like crap on days when everything does not seem to be going right? Or perhaps when you wake up late, find yourself with no purpose, get irritated with yourself and sometimes wish you could go back to sleep and start all over, tomorrow? I do feel like that on some days (even a few days in a row), and I know if I keep it up… It will build into some sort of mild depression (if it hasn’t already – okay, to be honest, it has but I am working on it).

There are a few websites (MoodGYM, etc.) that encourage you to do a bunch of exercises for your mind and gain some perspective, when you’re feeling absolutely pathetic. Other times, I try to just get over it which is easier said than done. Mostly, what I hate are those days when you want to cry, cry and continue to keep on crying – the kind that never really stops (those tears that are shed for no particular rhyme or reason), and that as a process is not really cleansing but that alters all the sadness you’re feeling into anger, or something equally bitter. And so, I’m breeeeeaking the habit, tonight (you are crooning with me, yes)

Clean out your closet, head, etc. Whatever bro! Cleaning really helps me at those times when I feel like a useless person. It occupies you, which is something you definitely need… It opens your mind, and just gives you something better to do rather than hate on yourself. 

Communicate what you’re feeling, erm, talk to someone maybe? I know it’s easy for me to say but trust me, it actually really isn’t. Because I prefer keeping things to myself and self-healing or whatever. It works, on occasion but I think talking to either a close friend or sibling, perhaps even a counsellor or professional helps tonnes, too. (Ooh, maintaining a journal is gold! I haven’t actually been writing very often in mine; I know I should.)

Drink uh, nothing intoxicating perhaps, at a time like this! Tea is the potion. (I know you were thinking I would have said coffee!) I prefer tea in times of distress, I love the aroma especially if it’s of the clear, herbal variety – ooh, like rose tea. Or camomile! Lavender is one to be tried.

Exercise (I know, d-uh!) But I have only come to recently appreciate the goodness that comes out of an intense work-out sesh. Good energy is what you need to snap out of it! And it’s a lot easier to tap on some good vibes through an old-fashioned run in the park, some yoga for your head, and some movement for your muscles.

Experiment with something completely new (not acid, you doof)! Be brave, just go with it. I used to think I wasn’t exactly a camping or forest sort of person until I went to one, this summer. And it was a really mild experience but nonetheless, so good for me. Much as I thought to myself that it wasn’t me, and I would be bored, that my legs wouldn’t be able to take it (making excuses, etc.) but once I was there – it wasn’t bad at all. I got to spend an entire afternoon semi-floating in the cool waters of a secret, inlet pool there, sit on pebbles that grew hot through the afternoon (steam even rose from them), lie with my head resting on warm pebbles as foamy, gushing water massaged my temples… Well, it was something! So don’t be like me or dismiss things before you know how they can be, you might hate or love it but it is better to have known, and/or tried. Promise? (Okay, just listen to Brave by Sara Bareilles if you think I’m talking out of my arse or something.)

Learn something you never have before, or that you always wanted to. I looked for some of those online courses that you can do for free and didn’t find subjects I liked, but then I was inspired by my friend Abhishek (Khan) who is teaching himself the art of drawing lettering types so I think I’m going to do some of that, myself. (Personal projects are good for you!)

Listen to good music, old sounds (read: Linkin Park), whatever inspires you or gets you going, etc. Music is like love for me, it just speaks to me whenever I’m feeling things, good or bad. I relate to it, and I think it mostly helps alter my mood or makes me feel instantly good about myself.

Rest well, and good, my sweet friend! (I gotta cut down on my daily caffeine intake, dude.) 

Shower (ing) is my favourite-st, fail-proof method to physically break out of a funk; cold or hot, take your pick but make sure your gel or shampoo smells like the best fragrance you have ever smelled. (I like the Wild Argan Oil shower gel from The Body Shop or anything that smells good to me, when I feel depressed!)

Smell fragrances that make you feel empowered or invigorated, etc. I know this sounds shallow or weird, but it does help ease the mind, etc. I think that’s why I’m overly fond of wearing perfume, lighting agarbattis and scented candles, and what-not.

P.S. Do you ever/really feel like this? Basically, I think every step is simple, is heard of and usually works. A combination of some steps work, too! I just thought of writing this post on a very random note, because as you now know; I feel like this on-and-off and it really bothers me. I just want to do more, feel more, and live more. We should not have to worry so much about making money or dying young, or not having done things; we should work at being happy, do things instead (worry less) and just be ourselves. 


Artwork by Roanna Fernandes



196 Oktoberfest

Oh, I am just thrilled that October is here! It’s one of my favourite months, and I am going to make sure I make good on all of the promises to myself and well, to others. But self-improvement is of essence so the rest comes later. How are you today? I hope well. I’ve gotten my groove back (when it comes to this planet), and I have just read Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn (cannot wait enough for the MOVIE) – not sure why I had to share that in the same breath. Wahoo! Okay, also, there should be a few reviews coming up covering: The Body Shop, Kronokare, possibly a What’s in My Bag? post and maybe one of those Currently Coveting ones. – Nothing’s sponsored! I just told you, just got my groove back y’all. (Please don’t steal this artwork, and post it as yours? But share it if you would like, and send over some credit where it’s due. I love you! I told you, October is one of my favourite-st months. Farewell, friends.)

P.S. Another good book that deserves an infinite round of applause is Habibi by Craig Thompson; just the cure for depressed illustrators, I would say? Read it, okay? I will be fabric shopping, soon. Got any good leads (Bombay)? I so wish I lived in Delhi. Or London, for that matter. Send me magical vibes, yougaiz!


Artwork by Roanna Fernandes

Laws of Attraction

193 Laws of Attraction

Okay, I promised I would have an explanation for you! (Read the previous post, for some background.) And the words you will read are ones I wrote when I was in a weird, emotional slump but I am very, very okay now. Decided to publish this post anyway because didn’t want to seem dishonest. So there! Also, the question above is one I ask with candor, with a grin on my face… As I am curious. Genuinely! Tell you what I think, that I’ll have this BLOG forever. But is that too presumptuous of me? That’s why, tell me about your babies and what you think of them, where they will be, how they would grow, etc. Sorry to get all interview-ie on you.

And now, here’s the emotional slumping (written two days ago + saved it as a draft): Well, most of it! (Don’t hate!) Put it in quotes for your benefit. Too much of blah-blah, and gah-gah but couldn’t bring myself to scrap some sentences for the sake of being true to one’s self. 

“There’s so much I want to do with this space but once again, I feel at a loss of words! (Even considered playing on the words in the title and calling the post, Loss of Attraction.) For the longest time ever, I haven’t been able to write, here. Haven’t been taking pictures of the products I’ve bought, all of my new clothes, shoes, nothing, NADA. Why? It’s the worst sort of emotional slump, taking abode in my brain and body. I think it will change, soon. I can’t not write, anymore, right? It happens to the best of us. I think! How are you? Ooh, btw, I am proud to say that I have edited and added details for all the PAGES on my blog. Good work on my part, yes?

Which reminds me, need to post some work too that I’ve done (PRESENT DAY: As you can see, I’ve done that already!), and terribly LOVE. (Chanced upon a delightful writer by the name of Rainbow Rowell at Crossword, last weekend! Didn’t pick up a book by HER though I desperately wanted to, the mother-ship would have murdered me. But yes, downloaded a few of her works online. Reading Attachments which is unfolding really, really nicely. Let’s see what happens, eh?)”

P.S. Finished reading the book, and I highly recommend it! Don’t forget to pick up a copy of The Juice magazine by JABONG, there’s an artwork I made for them that resides on page 38. Ooh, and it’s the issue with Sonakshi Sinha on the COVER! One more last thing, sorry to inform you but I have decided to temporarily discontinue the typeface series on the BLOG. Couldn’t bring myself to work on it, and I kept putting it off only to realise I was simply too bored to continue with it as a series anymore. Forgive me, dear friends! Take care.


Artwork by Roanna Fernandes